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I'm Coming Home!
I can remember- standing in the courtroom- witnessing my own funeral- the eulogy being the sentence- life without the possibility of parole. Can you imagine- your fate being expressed so nonchalantly - as you absorb the magnitude of such a reality as- life without the possibility of parole?
During my 21 years - behind these steel curtains - I’ve watched the reality of being confined - without the cutaneous stimulation of a woman- break some of the strongest men- stripping them of their knowledge of civilisation - forcing them into psychological caves wherein savages reside- and the character that they displayed- upon being confined - peeled away - exposing their intrinsik selves.
I’ve watched these men seek solace- in the institution of religion - searching for God outside themselves - not knowing that God can ever be evident outside of self- and to even attempt to make him/her so- negates one's self- because one is going outside of self- to identify that which exists in self.
The word God- merely serves as a garment- to make real- what has always been- always is- and always will be- this is the significance of the usage of language - for if it were not for language - words- a garment- we could never conceptualize that which is infinite.
What was it that sustained me?- one may ask.
It was thought- for I never accepted the sentence that was superimposed upon me. I never excepted prison as my reality- or destiny - and though I was physically apprehended I refused to be psychologically captured.
Everytime that I spoke with my mother- I expressed - “I’m coming home” - and though I know that she believed - I also know that she couldn't fathom how.
In the process of me coming home - this journey- people appeared- some for a season- some for a reason. Those that came for a season - relinquished in the season that they came- and though it was painful- I overstood that it was necessary - that those that came for a reason could be positioned in my demonstration - so when ties were broken- I celebrated- knowing that they were only making room for my blessing. I met a lady once- who asked me - “how much time do you have”.
She was interested in me - at that time - and I replied to her -”they gave me life-but I’m not going to do it!” she smiled coyly- turned on her heels and walked away from me.
Why am I telling you this?
Because I want you to- not only see me- but also see yourselves in the proper context. There is no such thing as an impossibility- for if you can visualize the future- you can position yourselves to walk into that reality. I’m saying that - through the expansion of your consciousness- upon actualizing your Godself - you can absolutely project thought then walk into that reality.
That being expressed- no longer does history have to be written- after it happens. Conceive it - then walk into it. I’m coming home! Le’Taxione®
In my endeavors to exact redemption through the atonement process- I’ve been approached with faustian bargains - that if acted upon would have- not only capitulated my integrity - but would have also capitulated the integrity of my work - and for this reason - I rejected said deals - out of hand - for there is no finality in my character - or demonstration - I CAN’T BE BOUGHT!
In my studies of organizational psychology- I’ve found that there has been two character defects- that have always caused organizations to implode- rendering them impotent- ineffective- and undermining the cause for which they were initiated.
This reality finds expression - in every failed organization - that has existed - since the beginning of time - and those two character defects are - envy and venality.
Envy and venality- have been the root cause - of every failed organization - for they are insidious - surreptitious - and masterfully veiled in concern- and financial advancement.
Envy is insidious - in the fact the it can’t be portrayed to the naked eye unless it’s in the presence of the object that it envy’s - and it’s ability to contort itself- to hide within any circumstance- makes it almost undetectable- invisible.
Venality is surreptitious- in the fact that it burrows itself into the intrinsic functionality of organizations- and whispers into the hearts of its membership- by offering itself as a financial solution- when in reality - it is driven by greed- selfishness- and pessimism.
I used the terminology- character defect- rather than character flaw- for a flaw can be corrected - but a defect has no redemptive qualities. If something is defective- it must be discarded.
That being expressed- I was recently offered a significant amount of capital- under the condition that I alter my curriculum- to fit the status quo establishments philosophy on gang prevention.
Without naming names - at this moment - here's my retort- “I am a God!- I refuse to capitulate my position on gang violence prevention and intervention - only to join the feckless- chorus of popular opinion - that has not been effective- in this area of expertise - since the late 1700’s. I’m not an analyst - nor do I follow data- and or statistical trends. I am a real - live - authentic - gang member - who has actualized redemption - through the atonement process- and has been given assignment by the universal order of things - to effectuate change among those trapped in the traumatic- negative aspect- of the structural gang culture mentality- and to change a process “N’STEPⓇ” to appease - fiscal - popular opinion- would not only render me ineffective - but it would cause N”STEPⓇ- to be - out of step - undermining my assignment. “
I make you privy to this fact because I want you to see me- in the proper context. I’m not your average negro! I am a principal's cat - who knows his worth- whose self image has not been distorted by circumstance- and whose self concept has remained intact. Even under the profuse attack on the character of those who languish behind these steel curtains- so when you approach me- know that I am authentic - TILL DEATH DO US!Le’TaxioneⓇ
As I sat in the courtroom- listening to the judge- prosecutor- and my public pretender- using the Latin language- speaking over my head concerning my future- I thought - “I don’t have a grip on the english language- how do they expect me to overstand this legal jargon”.
In the midst of my thoughts- the sound of the gavel pierced my reality- sounding like the thump of a baseball bat meeting the bone of one's head- bringing me back to the present circumstance- and the words that followed - “Will the defendant please rise”- and I obliged.
“You’ve been found guilty- by a jury of your peers” - I immediately took issue with that statement- for not only- were there no one on that jury- that was of my peers- but there was no one on that jury- that was of my ethnicity. I stood there - erect- shoulders back- head up- chest out- receiving a life without parole sentence- and didn’t even have the presence of mind to blink or flinch.
At that moment- I witnessed my own funeral- for all intent was that I would die behind the steel curtains of the prison industrial complex. I was escorted back to my assigned cell - located in the assaultive module- of the county jail. I stepped inside- still cuffed- and when the door was closed behind me - the escorts opened the slot- built into the door- that they used to feed those of us who were deemed assaultive.
I bent forward at the waist- pushed my cuffed hands backwards- through the slot- and the cuffs were removed. I looked at the imprint - left in my wrist- by impress- from the cuffs being placed on too tight- and sat on my bunk.
Not long after- I was notified that my baby daughter had died. Initially I blamed myself- “If only I’d been there- she may have lived”- only to find out- years later -where the true blame belonged”.
I made a promise to her memory - that I would change my life- and after 21 years-under duress- oppression - adversity- experiencing sophistry and subterfuge on behalf of individuals who presented themselves as friends- comrades- including woman who presented themselves as lovers- I kept my promise- and the universe has yielded to my command to be liberated- the taste of freedom so palpable that i frolic in it spiritually and in 75 days - I’ll experience it physically.
Let the trials- tribulations- and victories in my life- act as catharsis for anyone who is at their wits end- and think that they are not going to make it. We live in a universe of cause and effect- comande the universe with your words and deeds - and it must respond- for you are a direct descendant of the most high- who gave you dominion. Le’Taxione Ⓡ
The Enemy in My Friends Skin
First and foremost- these thoughts are not meant to be abrasive- on the contrary- they are placed in the public domain - to add context to that which we experience - as human beings- on a continuum.
We all experience - what is termed - the “Judas Factor” - for anytime one endeavors to reach new heights - climb the social ladder - effectuate change among the disenfranchised masses - in that instant- the universe prescribes for you a Judas- one who stands in opposition to your destiny - but we must see said Judas - and their opposition - in the proper context.
Once we endeavour to maximise our potential - actualize our God self- vibrational frequencies are emitted into the universe- mimicking the ripple that expand outward from there point of origin - as in a pebble being thrown into a pond - but six miles high above the earth - is the ceiling of gravity - and this barrier - acts as opposition to the frequencies emitted - but if the frequencies are routed in magnanimity - moral rectitude - God consciousness - it shatters the opposition found in the ceiling of gravity - pierces the universal plaine - impregnating it - and causing it to give birth to circumstances that brings your goals into fruition.
This happens on a electrical - spiritual - vibrational level - but how does this law apply to this carnal - psychical plane.
Once we endeavour to maximise our potential - actualize our God self- there are those who we deem friend - who can’t countenance our advancement that experience a sense of abandonment - and this allows envy to grow within their hearts - giving rise to resentment - causing them to become opposition - a ceiling of gravity to your advancement and success.
But just as the baby bird experiences the pain of breaking through the shell of the egg- to come into light or life - just as the rose must endure the pain of pushing its way upward - through the earth - to be kissed by the sun - and just as a baby must experience pain - pushing its way through a small opening in the womb - to come forth into light or life - we must endure the pain of pushing through the opposition of the enemy - evident in our friends skin - that we too may come into light or life - and achieve our desired goals.
Every living organism must experience pain - in order to effectuate growth - for with growth is pain- and with pain is growth - they are inextricably bound - and necessary for success.
Your desire to be successful must transcend the pain that's attached to the goal - and you must be willing to not only grow past the enemy in your friends skin - but you must be willing to sever all ties - when the enemy in your friends skin - becomes your Judas- and opposes your success. Le’TaxioneⓇ
Thought Trapped in Matter
I watch as humanity - through limited forms of thought surrender themselves to systems- that superimpose upon them - it interpretation of reality surrounding themselves with material things that permit them to be deemed- as successful - by the limited consciousness of this social construct. A social construct that dictates thought - in these systems - activity- and even one's appearance.
We have become so consumed by this material plain of existence - which is an evanescent illusion - that we’ve capitulated our sovereignty - becoming lost in matter - ferss to our own manufactured dogmas - traditions - laws - and belief systems.
We've allowed ourselves to be imprisoned in this earthly garment- called body- survival becoming our preoccupation - relinquishing the essence of our true selves- our God selves- which affords us the attributes of creativity - and for that reason we suffer under the yoke of oppression - for we choose matter- carnality - to the detriment of our God potential.
Instead of being the expression of thought over matter- we've become thought trapped in matter- creating realities that tether our emotions to this illusionary plain of existence - and for that we perish as matter - instead of elevating and transcending this plane - as the Gods we are.
Holding Prison Officials accountable - Reduces Recidivism - and Creates safer communities.
Pleasure, Pain and Self Sabotage
My journey- consisting of 21 years behind steel curtains- has forced me to become a student of the human condition. I’ve entertained various friendships- and yes - I’ve experienced love - though ephemeral.
I’ve experienced pleasure - levels of felicity - euphoria at the thought of actualizing an intimate interaction - that could be best described as (one flesh)- and the unfulfilment of that expectation - procured pain.
I’ve loved whole heartedly - in totality - resultant of my ferverent prayers emitted into the universe- there vibrational frequencies mandating a response- but becuase my prayer was incomplete- the love that I experienced was not reciprocal - for I’ve found that some women disregaurded by past love interest - subconsciesly nurture the pain concomitant with their past emotional interactions.
It seems as though the men that they've relinquished their most sacred selves to - the men that they’ve loved - in the past - have taken so much out of them - that they’ve become emotionally distraught - becoming doubtful - suspicious - of thier right to love and be loved - viscerally - amorously- in totality.
The pain that has been inflicted upon their essence - has in some way - caused them to internalize culpability - creating a cycle by which externally inflicted pain- becomes an internally practiced self sabotage.
To those women - I ask - “If he has been extricated from your life- rendered extraneous- out of necessity - that you may advance - then why allow his vitiation of you to govern - influence - and in some cases - dictate- every present and future interaction?”
“Why give an individual who is no longer a part of your life - that much influence over your demonstration ?”
“Why hold your love in abeyance denying yourself the possibility to be truly loved - creating walls around your center mass (Heart) ?”
Now is your time to experience both love and life- more abundantly - but you must release yourself from him - his cruelty - his disregard of your divine nature - that you may efflorescence - and become the beautiful blessing that you were created to be.Le’Taxione®
I’ve started this missive several times - only to relent - for it has never been my intentions to make public intimate adversity.
I’ve tried every avenue of redress - not wanting to experience life without us - yet the inevitable - though delayed- is still just that……. inevitable.
We entered into this emotional contract - a promissory note - to honor the language which bears our intimate signature - hearts synchronized - one flesh.
We knew of the abnormal circumstances - the elements of incarceration - distance in time - formidable adversaries - yet we embrace the challenge - used our being - pointed towards the moon - our essence the projectile shot into the vastness of space - that we may existe - frolic among the stars.
I’d hoped that you would prove to be that aspect of my being taken from me upon creation - placed outside of self - that i may travel the vicissitudes of life - in search of - that I may again be whole.
Against my better judgement- in violation of my constitution - I volnoberlized myself - only to be disappointed - yet I stood steadfast in the face of adversity - impervious to the visual lie - intimate phone calls - false promises - undefeated.
You couldn’t see my vision - couldn't fathom the depth of my passion - couldn't countenance my ambition- drive- my desire for success- and my unrelenting stance against injustice.
You perceived my discourse - just prison talk - my vision - just a pipe dream - my liberation - an impossibility- but I now poise myself to move among the free - my turn has come.
In giving up on me- you gave up on yourself - entertaining unfulfilling escapades with mannequins - relinquishing your most sacred self - only to regret the instant act - its elusive gratification immediately dissipating in the darkness of silence- where you know lay - alone.
To all of you who didn’t believe in me - the earth is my opportunity - and i'll make the world adjust.
Woman be loosed
First and foremost- this is not a religious or dogmatic piece - this is merely a thought - rooted in the truth of revelation - that wisdom may be imparted - shining a light into darkness - and have darkness comprehend the light.
I was talking to one of the most beautiful women - that I’ve ever met - and she expressed to me - that she thought that her destiny was to be alone. (paraphrased)- I disagree.
No woman is destined to be alone - that is the choice one makes who have - in most instances - suffered trauma - that led to a distorted self-image - self-concept - self-worth - which in turn causes her to either consciously or subconsciously - devalue herself - and her relevance to god's plan.
The God made man for woman - and woman for man - for he is a God of order - not of chaos - anything else is a choice we make.
Now don’t misconstrue what I'm saying - I'm not delegitimizing the extraordinary love found in the LGBTQ community - for your right to love who you choose to love is sacrosanct - an issue that I've addressed with my beautiful daughter.
I’m saying this - unaddressed trauma whisper into the psyche of its victim and makes adverse thoughts fair seeming. One deserves the felicity of a love that is shared between two humans - to the delight of god - for after god made man and saw that man was alone it was determined that this was not good - and for us now - to pit our intelligence against god - and come away thinking that we are right - and God is wrong - it is the epitome of deceptive intelligence rationalizing disobedience to god - the same mistake that satan made.
One must be cognizant of the fact that emotional pain from one's past - seeks to renew itself through experiencing more pain - videlicet - for one that has been placed upon this plain of existence to cohabitate - experience and receive love interacting as a spirit having a material experience - to pretend that it is their choice to be alone - when in reality - it is their fear of intimacy or loss that procures loneliness - is in fact - the act of inflicting pain upon oneself - and by proxy - allowing the emotional pain of one's past to renew itself.
This emotional pain - fear - then becomes psychosomatic - proscribing love - causing one to subconsciously- self-sabotage - negating one's purpose - one's inherent - intrinsic - desire to be whole.
You see - the pastor - is a religious coward - or their intentions are aimed at your tides- rather than your spiritual growth and development - for they should be imparting the wisdom of God's word - a wisdom that is for the perpetuation of humanity - through ordained activity - that unifies human spirits that God is made manifest on earth.
It is said that the truth will set you free- in this case - free from loneliness - free from victimology - free from a distorted self-image - and self-concept - that proscribes the maximization of your potential - which is found in the God concept of two becoming one.
My Valentines day Wish
On Valentine's day- My wish is not for myself - or for my many comrades that are faced with economic disparities - in crimogenic communities across this great nation- and also for all of the human families that have yet to experience a love that helps them to effloresce - even in times that are as trying as the ones that we find ourselves in.
My valentines day wish - for all of you - is that on this day you discover that the one that you've chosen to love - authentically loves you. Not with a situational - circumstantial - or conditional love - but with a holistic - agape love that transcends materialism - and exists on a spiritual level wherein ones every breath is cherished - one’s every movement is appreciated - one’s every word is deemed mellifluous - where every touch is erotic - one’s pheromones is euphoric - and every memory made provokes nostalgia.
I wish you a love that transcends this plane of existence - it’s substratum found in the universal commands - BE! The essence of which has performed the act of copulation in space - not measured by time - it’s falience eternal.
I desire for you a love that is beyond comprehension - frolicks in lust - tempered by its own existence independent of popular opinions - self sustaining - self fueling - never to experience depletion - for just as energy - it is only transformed into levels of expression.
I pray that your love is blessed with longevity never to fall prey to the elements of distance and time - never to succumb to financial insolvency - to exist outside of this garment (bodies) called matter- that the things that plagued this garment does not matter - for as a matter of fact - love is all that matters.
An Excerpt From My Clemency Hearing
Politics and the emerging role of the Structural Gang CultureⒸ
2016 has proved to be an interesting year-disheartening for the vast majority of us who have witnessed our peers lose their lives in the streets- in the highways and byways of life.
We’ve also witnessed an electoral process- that has left many uncertain- and I watched in dismay- how the fact that Donald Trump has been elected president- has brought those who threw their support behind secretary Clinton- to tears.
I think that people discounted the fact that chauvinism- misogyny- gender- and a general disregard for the divine feminine principle- has been a hallmark of the body politics of this social construct- since its inception- the disparity and wages between women and men being only one of the manifestations of this fact- but i'll touch on that subject another time.
I want to evanescently highlight the fact that it was “working class white males” - that were credited for putting Donald Trump in the Oval office- and this informs us of the very real power relationship that has always been the substratum of our social construct here in America- and is also identified as who and what the status quo establishment is truly representative of.
I ask that you implore your intellect rather than your emotions- for when emotions supplement reasoning- it distorts one’s ability to perceive reality correctly.
Let’s move on.
When Barack Obama was elected- I listened to him make this statement- “The earth has shifted beneath your feet”- then he went on to state that those who had become culpable with the old ways of this country were- “disciples of a failed ideology”- then we are witnessing a resurgence of a euro nationalistic identity as a result of this electoral process- maybe president Obama attempted to bury all the racial ideologies of america prematurely- it is said that old habits die hard.
I’ve heard those of the structural gang cultureⒸ- express that they have no interest in the political process- for they don’t think that it affects them.
Not only is this statement not rooted in fact- but it is a blatant prevarication - rooted in emotion and ignorance- for politics affects every aspect of our sphere of activity- every aspect of our environment- and our condition within this environment- under this circumstance for every politician platform has been built on slogans like (law and order- war on drugs- tough on crime- and this phraseology works as code language- a dog whistle to body politics- resulting in new legislation and laws- that disproportionately affect those that languish blighted by the community.
Here’s just a few examples of this historical fact in the 50's and 60's conservative strategically equated protest to crime- issuing calls for “law and order” by their candidate George Wallace. Donald Trump employs this same tactic. In 1964 Barry Goldwater- in his presidential campaign- initiated the - “get tough on crime”- phraseology.
It was president Richard Nixon- who called for a “War on Drugs”- in 1968- a battle adopted by president Reagan in 1982. In 1994 president Bill Clinton adopted the “tough on crime” phraseology- endorsing the idea of a federal three strikes law- resulting in the largest increase in federal state prison populations in american history- according to the justice policy institute.
Now we have a prison population of 2.3 million- and I ask - who did this that disproportionately- makes up the bulk of that population? It is the disenfranchised- the marginalized- the poor who live in blighted communities.
Classism- though rooted in racism - has become the rule of day effectuated through the electoral process- political strategies which sustain the status quo establishment agenda to maintain an unequal power relationship so in reality- the failed ideology in president Obama- so eloquently eulogized - has not died it what just transformed - given a seductive veneer of change - couched in the phraseology of making america great again.
Back to the structural gang cultureⒸ- it is incumbent upon us to become cognizant of these realities - in processes- that affect our lives so profoundly - has become adept at countering the political strategies and tactics that capture us both physically and psychologically - but we can’t achieve this most imperative rolls through socially oriented violence and criminality- and to eradicate the effects thereof - we must change the way we view - process- and interact with reality.
At the present moment we are employing arkaik - exhausted methodologies- that are attempts to secure a future for ourselves and our seed. We will never be successful in our endeavor to secure a future - as long as our thinking- and our activity belong to our traumatic past.
Allowing colors to influence- and in some cases dictate our associations and interactions - it's not only arkaik- and exhausted- but it is a psychological form of color addictionⒸ giving rise to the violent color responseⒸ- which feeds an ingroup and outgroup mentality - causing us to segregate ourselves- separate ourselves from each other- limiting our resources and the network needed to combat the social ills that we are faced with in our communities.
It is not the politicians duty to effectuate change in the community that they do not inhabit. It is our responsibility- to the possibility - that should indite and motivate us- to change the conditions in our communities - that places our youth - our precious seed at a disadvantage- and impediment in our quest for upward mobility- for if an environment - and community- is unsafe- unsecure- that reality superimposes itself upon the psyche of its inhabitants - making failure a possible alternative to success.
If our youth are forced indoors by our violent criminal activities - and our madness- we have constructively - desensitized them to incarceration- making the restriction to free movement- a social norm that is reaffirmed by jail and prison.
Soon- I will be publishing my- “Structural Gang CultureⒸ Normative Social Change Process” and my nine point plan for community restructuring. By doing so I hope to spark our inherent genius - self determination- then position us to act as agents of social justice and change through N’STEP’sⓇ methodology of concrete activism- in this era of social engineering we made it.
While on duty within an organization of social justice and change aimed at educating inmates within the American prison industrial complex- I came across Le’Taxione™’s name and work. I was shocked that I had never seen his work before.
It had nothing to do with my living in Canada, or not being familiar with inmate advocacy and education- I had already gained experience in such campaigns and was aware of the mandates of popular organizations. But not aware of Le’Taxione™’s work. This was a disappointment. I had been present at board meetings of various groups. I had been present in department meetings organizing and creating curriculums and educational materials- seemingly conducting research and development. But Le’Taxione™ had already accomplished a corpus of work in this regard- based on multiple sciences- addressing a marginalized section of society- present in communities nationwide- who are losing the battle- on their way to the prison yard or the grave yard.
Who was preventing his work from reaching the people who need it the most? None of it made sense then- but it does now. Not all organizations of social justice and change are genuinely working on behalf of our communities. Not all campaigns regarding advocacy and public awareness are of added value to the people. They exhibit form over functionality- in disarray with poor organizational structure. Some of our boards stagnate in rhetoric and nostalgia while families bury their loved ones.
Let me be pellucid. We have within the Struggle- individuals who purport to be committed to mental and physical liberation- who deter progress as the means of maintaining their relevance in society. There are mascots and mannequins- disguised as advocates- in front of media cameras cutting ribbons and posing at vigils- who consciously make no advancement on behalf of the people- as the downtrodden provide these individuals with income- status- resources- even prayers- to no avail. Our suffering is their meal.
The arrogance of the status quo will cost more lives- frustrate the struggle- hide the truth- punish the honorable- reward sophistry and subterfuge- appoint misleaders- create more opportunities of oppression- while smiling at us before slithering off to their meetings and venues of political and socio-economical tactics.
Those who have careers within the prison industrial complex who have chosen to dehumanize themselves and become agents of human and societal destruction- will recognize pieces of their demonstration in Original Diamond Boy Part2. Le’Taxione™ has championed you and will continue to do so. You- agent of human and societal destruction- assumed that a member of the Structural Gang Culture would automatically succumb to the systemic racist agenda of the prison industrial complex- Le’Taxione™ has proven you wrong and the world is privy to why and how one must Change Gang Behavior From The Inside Out®.
Those who have been given positions of leadership within the struggle- who know they don’t deserve them- and continue to drain the emotional, spiritual, and financial resources of the oppressed and marginalized- will recognize their reflection in Original Diamond Boy Part 2. You are documented in history and exposed to society once again. You have abandoned your word- oath- duties- and have left the masses believing that you are an answered prayer. You are a detriment to yourself and your community- and have been concealing Le’Taxione™ and his work from the youth and those who genuinely work towards social justice and change.
Then there is the issue of “justice”. Society has accepted the unspoken price of justice and the suffering of those who cannot afford it. Le’Taxione™ has not. Original Diamond Boy Part 2 will expose the reader to what it means to be a Diamond Boy while outnumbered and in custody. This Diamond is
beyond Hollywood depictions- political administrations- propaganda- miseducation- systemic campaigns to prevent someone from helping themself- sabotage- blatant lies and court processes that commit more atrocities than those who are accused.
DIAMONDS ARE FOREVER. Created under pressure.
You will overstand that Le’Taxione™ is an author- Gangologist- educator- leader- legitimate businessman- Concrete Activist- and a Structural Gang Culture member who will not genuflect under the pressure of an unjust system and organizations with Nothing Accomplished After Considerable Pretense. HE IS A DIAMOND. He has work to do. He will not be deterred by individuals and formations content with theatrics and pretense.
He will not be deterred by a system that continues to incarcerate him after they’ve admitted their own unjust practices. He is in perpetual motion. His work is his atonement.
Not only has he championed his battles- he has recorded in various texts- including Gangology 101: Gang Violence Prevention and Intervention- the methodology that should be applied for another to fortify him or herself as they advance to mental and physical liberation.
Be advised however- that your leaders have kept this information from you. I’ve spoken to staff in Governors’ offices. I’ve spent weeks in communications with members of the Black Caucus who claim to have an agenda on behalf of the public. I can tell you- with respect to Gang Violence Prevention and Intervention- they are unprepared- untruthful- ill equipped- and interested in another bottom line.
THE TRUTH FEARS NO INVESTIGATION- this is something Le’Taxione™ taught me very early. Check his work. Check his statements. You will know that he has been working on behalf of our communities for over thirty years – even during incarceration- without the assistance of the aforementioned - he fears no investigation. However, our leaders and organizations of social justice and change cannot extend such an invitation of investigation- they’re afraid you’ll assess their progress and lack thereof.
The 2016 election campaigns have consumed the public. Some may still have hope in the system. Some can’t wait for the hype of politics to quiet down. Some are aware that the results mean nothing to the Structural Gang Culture and the communities blighted.
Check the statistics of areas like Chicago and wonder why your President hasn’t made the effort to help those of his hood- who look like him- to better their communities. Let that sink in.
The science of Le’Taxione™’s work facilitates positive change from the inside out- accessible to all. Remember this when our leaders try to create groups of “us” and “they”. These are age old social engineering strategies that maintain the societal divisions- oppression- and the prison industrial complex. Govern yourself accordingly. Find the truth- the real- the inner resource- the path- and genuflect to no one. Stay the course. Le’Taxione™ has done it and will continue to do so.
The pressure is real- the opposition is homicidal and genocidal- the system is unjust- the leaders have sold out- the organizations have lost the moral compass required to stay the course- but…DIAMONDS ARE FOREVER. Original Diamond Boy Part 2 will prove just that.
My Apologia 2
I ended the first part of my apologia- with a quote that was made by Pastor Shon Davis- in his letter to Gov Jay Inslee- concerning my expedited release. The Pastor stated- “those closest to the problem are closest to the solution”.
This statement- is both true and profound. When you have a person that has experienced an addiction to a substance- and that person reforms and transforms their lives- that person is the best example- the best messenger- to those trapped in the state of addiction- for those trapped - can better relate to one who has lived through their circumstance - endured their pain- and have transcended- changing the trajectory of their lives- demonstrating the success in their journey- making success tangible- achievable- to those who are still trapped in a counter productive lifestyle.
The trauma that procures post traumatic gang syndrome Ⓒ (ptgs)- acts as an acencent memory- when triggered - causes the structural gang culture Ⓒ member to relive said memory- and release is found in the participation in violence - causing a neurological chemical secretion of adrenaline and endorphins - causing a state of hypervigilance which becomes addictive - creating a personality construct- a psychic impression of oneself= it does not experience uforia - except in a state of conflict - and in the absence of said conflict - in some instances - drugs and or alcohol become substitute.
Though we - as a social construct- are not ready to admit it - members of the structural gang culture Ⓒ experience the same relative aspects of the post traumatic stress disorder that soldiers returning from war experience. we experience hypervigilance - emotional hijacking- fear conditioning anhedonia - the only difference between what we experience- and what soldiers returning from war experience- is that one activity is deemed legal and the other illegal- but that too - is relative.
I’ve debated this fact with psychologist - psychiatrists- social scientists- and with the terminology and clinical analysis used in their field of study defended my position- a position that could not - and can not be refuted.
This fact does not in anyway desmerch anyone that have served in the armed forces- on the contrary- my step father and my uncle were military- and both paid a price - a price that allows me to freely express my position without redisence - or fear of ignorance or opposing views- especially when my position is supported by behavioral sciences.
This does not absolve me of any accountability in this epic drama - not in the least. I accept culpability - for my own fallibility - and deserved at that time to be incarcerated. I am merely giving the reader a evinecent glance into the psychological circumstances wherein gang violence flourishes.
Because I can give the reader this insight - resultant of both my life experiences - and my pursuits in sociology - psychology- physiology etc. - and the fact that I transcended the miscreant aspect of the gang mentality= and have compiled a corpus of work to this end- makes me - one who is closest to the problem- therefore- closest to the solution.
The first in the series of writings on this subject.
I awakened this morning at 3:30 - as I do every morning - and as my cellie slept- I pondered my life's journey to various bicissitupes- to this point. It was 1974 when i began claiming Crips- and as I reminisced - I examined the exogenous stimuli - that both consciously and subconsciously- influenced- and in some cases dictated the choices that I made- and would inevitably - result in me spending more than half of my life - behind the steel curtains of the steel industrial complexⒸ.
First and foremost- I want the reader to overstand that no one is separate and distinct from the environment that produces us- misogynist environmental stimuli is manufactured - circumstances fabricated - realities shaped and formed by our social construct- and though our environment may be marked by criminality - and viewed as negative - in reality it works as a positive - for it is necessary to fashion and construct the human being- that they may fulfill their purpose- if overstood correctly.
My mother Uvavi- used to warn me -” Yo-Yo you're going to die in those streets”- my father RIP- used to say - “ you'll die for your homeboys-but will they die for you”?
What they cannot overstand - for they couldn't see my destiny- is that mothers and fathers- that had lost children to the miscreant aspect of the structural gang cultureⒸ psychology - experienced such a visceral pain- that their anatomical biorhythm and their prayers send vibrational frequencies into the universe - and when this transpires - the universe - an organism that obeys the law of cause and effect - must answer by fabricating circumstances wherein an answer to such visceral prayer - and cries - is created.
Wait a minute- before you conclude that I am bent on my own omnipotence overstand that there is nothing spooky about what I am saying. Im saying that - “ when there is a collective - visceral pain- suffering- that affects the mother - the vessel that God had chosen to share his secret of creation with - giving her the power to create life- as he/she does- the universe is obligated to fabricate the circumstance that leads to the construction of human beings that are given the ability to effectuate change- ameliorating the pain of mother” - this is why and how individuals are born that cure the diseases that caused humanity to suffer and no one can disagree that gang violence- has become a dis-ease in our communities.
I - just as other men and women- have endured the fire- of the structural gang cultureⒸ experiences - its insensate violence- criminality- it's psychosomatic impexities - and have been refined- the dross seared from our character - and now we redeemed existence as the solution to a problem that we will work complicit in perpetuating.
Neither sociologist- nor psychologist- have produced a panacea - that has effectuated change among the structural gang cultureⒸ and how could they?They are not privy to the experiential knowledge as we have - so they are left on the periphery- applying clinical terms equal to throwing darts at the problem- while the backstreets of our reality run crimson with the blood of our youth.
As pastor Shon Davis of JITA City Church of Spokane, Wa said “ those closest to the problem is closer to the solution” .
Gun Violence: What Needs To Be Said
Recorded by Le'Taxione, August 30, 2016
Recorded by Le'Taxione, August 30, 2016
Gang violence is prevalent across America, reaching epidemic proportions and its growth continues to befuddle society in its attempt to discover answers to the ‘American gang problem’. Various strategies of deterrence have been employed including recreational escapism, legislation, and imprisonment. But these tactics have proven ineffective because they do not adequately recognize the societal conditions that create gang members, nor do they effectively address the unique mentality that perpetuates negative and destructive gang behavior.
Nine Steps to Empower Process, is an innovative, non-traditional and effective
approach to gang violence prevention and intervention. N’STEP® fosters trust,
willing cooperation, and enthusiasm in those who are a part of or susceptible
to gang affiliation. It was created and founded in 2001 by Le’Taxione™, a
Gangologist with a vision for utilizing his own experience and in-depth
knowledge of gang life to make positive difference in the lives of gang
This gang violence prevention and intervention curriculum provides a revolutionary solution for youth caught up in the destructive aspects of gang activity. N’STEP® seeks to offer an effective approach to meet the needs of gang members and affiliates by helping them to become better equipped to make beneficial personal choices and to help shape a healthier society in their own home communities. The N’STEP curriculum, and the companion text, “Original Diamond Boy: Psychology of a Gangbanger”, both authored by Le’Taxione™ (aka YoYo), are the cornerstones of the N’STEP® gang violence prevention and intervention process.